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I’ll always have Paris

I’m finding it really hard to get back into the swing of things. Part of it is that I’m still jetlagged and feeling foggy-headed from my horrific flight home on Saturday (which I’m not going to talk about, because I’d rather think about all the wonderful aspects of my trip). Another part is that I’m really depressed, which I wasn’t expecting at all, because Paris was wonderful and I desperately wanted to spend more time there, and also because it’s been 10 years since I had anything like a real vacation, and now I’m not sure whether I wanted to be reminded how much I love to travel and how infrequently I’ve been able to do it.
That’s 50 percent of my inability to get moving. The other 50 percent is that I was so inspired by Paris and my experience of the culture — and the pop culture — there, and by my desire to figure out how to be even more independent a worker/writer/creative person than I already am, that I’m almost paralyzed. I have a ton of new ideas about new features for this site and for the personal blog/portfolio/whatever that I’ve been thinking about starting for a while anyway that I barely know where to begin. Plus there’s a pile of money-job stuff staring me in the face that has to get done almost immediately — much of it having been put on hold while I was away — and that’s got me feeling overwhelmed too. (Part of the need to be more independent comes from wanting to be able to dump the money-job work and still make a living… and a good enough living to be able to travel more.)

So, while what I really feel like doing is crawling back into bed for a few days and crying, what I’m having to do is jump right back into the merry-go-round of screenings (I had two yesterday, three today — and hopefully late tonight or early tomorrow I’ll post a belated “my week at the movies” thingie). The merry-go-round of postings is spinning, begging me to jump back on, and hopefully that will happen tomorrow.

Oh, yeah, and the alarmist “news” about bloggers working themselves to death hasn’t helped my paralysis any… nor has the clear evidence of the major dip in my own traffic here while I was away. Blog more to raise traffic, and die in the process? Cake or death?



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  • Kate

    I always think it’s useful to try to have a few small treats planned for the day or two after you get home from a big vacation.

    Whatever floats your boat: a bottle of your favorite champagne, a batch of your favorite cookies in the freezer, or leaving some spending money at home for a tiny bout of retail therapy. It helps ease the post-trip depression!

    On my return from three weeks in Northern Italy a few years ago, my first day back home I treated myself to a leisurely brunch with a book, a matinee (wouldn’t work for you, MaryAnn, since that IS work!), and a new $15 tee-shirt before having to get back to work the next day. And it helped!!

  • PaulW

    Welcome back from Paris. So sorry you didn’t get a chance to meet a charming cat burgler who woos you into helping him steal the Mona Lisa. Ah, maybe next trip…

    You should consider planning at least one break a year. Nothing huge like trips to Paris but at least breaks from the routine, trips to the Grand Canyon or Seattle or roadtripping Route 66 or something…

  • Anteater

    I’ve always thought Eddie Izzard is even funnier via Legos, though I have analyzed why too much.

  • JSW

    Welcome back from Paris. So sorry you didn’t get a chance to meet a charming cat burgler who woos you into helping him steal the Mona Lisa. Ah, maybe next trip…

    Careful, he might be using it to fund his research into time-travel so that he can go back and prevent life on Earth from ever getting started. See if you can run the painting through an X-Ray to determine if it has the words “This is a fake” written in felt-tip pen on the canvas.

  • MaryAnn

    You should consider planning at least one break a year. Nothing huge like trips to Paris but at least breaks from the routine, trips to the Grand Canyon or Seattle or roadtripping Route 66 or something…

    I plan all the time. It’s the paying for it that’s a bitch. And have you ever looked at what it costs to travel domestically (in the US)? You can get good package deals to Europe from New York that cost far less (still enough, but far less) than it would to take a similar trip to San Francisco or Seattle.

    It’s also much harder to get away when you freelance. You don’t get paid for your days off (or your sick days), and there’s no one to take up your slack while you’re away.

  • Danielle

    The post-vacation hangover is one of the worst things ever. I had to very unhappily drag myself to work the Monday following my last vacation (three years ago, England, *sigh*). I’m determined to get away again this June, back to England. It’s bad though; last night I was seriously considering the issues that would arise if I decided not to return from vacation (how to make money, immigration drama, my husband would be a little upset, etc.)!

  • Katie

    Sorry to hear you’re having trouble resettling (though I completely understand the whole not-traveling enough thing) but selfishly I’m glad you’re back. :-)

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